noodle

I absolutely agree with all of these astute people. Find someone to talk to. Have a safety person. See a doctor about your weight issues. Some people find that when they're able to focus less on accomplishing a goal and actually enjoy themselves, their body relaxes and the decrease in anxiety/ anger/ frustration can let the body gain natural and healthy weight. I can't tell you how many people gain weight when they fall in love, get a job they enjoy, find happiness. Acupuncture for relaxation and seeing a nutritionist can also help. Find supportive people. I was made fun of for being overweight and as I shed pounds, I shed those toxic people. I feel healthier, inside and out.

Expand your horizons and try hanging out in some of those places where you feel more confident. If you like to read, hang out at a bookstore or coffee shop. You can sit off to the side for awhile... grab a journal and write. Put yourself in situations where you can feel like you're good at something. Go to the quad or central area at school and observe some of the interactions going on between people, if you feel awkward in the social situations. Dress in a manner you feel more confident in as you apply for jobs. Hold your head up when you're walking around. The world appears different when you look people in the eye. I hope things improve for you. I've been there.

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