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did I fuck up?
Ok... this is a long-ish story, and I'l try to make it as clear as I can, Im just interested in other people's opinions.
Basically I have had an online friend for about 3 years, she is a devout Christian and voted for Bush, and politically we had about nothing in common, but we got quite close - to the extent of talking on the phone, buying presents and so on. She had an "e-dating" type thing with a guy who posted on a board I used to post on, he is serving in Iraq, and I used to fight with hiom and wind him up by posting anti-war stuff. he used to get quite emotional, praying to God that I would be killed and silly things like that, until for her sake I made peace with him.
After a while I got to be friends with him and got quite close to him - he started to confide in me about the relationship problems they had (which I already knew cos she talked about them a lot) - and we got quite close, and he actually invited me to come stay with him this winter for 2 weeks.
In terms of the relationship, she was basically kind of playing him and keeping him hanging on while she was involved with someone else, but there was right and wrong on both sides... and I really tried to stay out of it.. but it got harder and harder. And the more he got hurt the more I started to feel kind of hostile to her, and started to pick fights with her (over things like she is quite anti-gay, whille I am not - since my mum is gay for one thing)
And it got to a point that today I told her I didnt think we were friends anymore and I didnt want to talk to her. She acted really sad, and she called up the guy and was crying about it... and now HE is saying he wants to stay cool with both us and he wont hold it against me if I dont get on with her.
Anyway, I dont know if thats very coherent, and I suppose it might sound silly - its just online stuff after all... but right now I feel like a pretty big shit, and also I dunno if I did something impetous, unfair, and foolish that I'll regret.
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"Do not tell lies, and do not do what you hate,
for all things are plain in the sight of Heaven. For nothing
hidden will not become manifest, and nothing covered will remain
without being uncovered."
The Gospel of Thomas
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