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BBtB · 05-21-2003, 12:36 AM

Okay, I had ALMOST finished this when my computer reset. This is the second time writing this. Hold on..

Before I get to my real question(s) I am going to give you all a little background on Katie and I. Our parents knew each other before we were born. She lived in Missouri untill she about 6 when she moved to Oklahoma with her family. They were often at our house because our moms were good friends and we had a farm. Life being funny and all that they (her family that is) ended up moving in with us for about 6 months. This was when she was about 9 or 10(Also I am a year older then her, just FYI because I keep giving these references in her age) Eventully her mom got back on her feet and moved back out but we (as two familys) stayed close for the next few years. At some point in all this she became my second real crush. Well as the only true constant in this world is time slowly the days passed into weeks then into months then into years. All that time I kept my feelings to myself as the fluctated from puppy love to .. something (because I dunno if I believe in true love but that is a topic for another time) back to puppy love. Then when I was around 14(ish) I finally got up the nerve to ask her out. I was shot down but hard. I remember I found a seculded place and cried for several hours. That was,as these things often are, the most tramatic experince in my short little love life. I never truely got over it. It is (part) of the reason I have only had 2 girlfriends. Of course I have only really asked out about 4 girls. To have a 50% yes ratio is quite good but relationship related things knows no logic. Well it was hard but I (thought I) got over her. I kept my mind busy with movies and (a few) other girls. Thinking of her often and comparing every girl I ever meet to her even though I don't often realize I even did it till later. Well I could go on like this awhile longer. I could make this about 3 times as long but none of it is important to my question (although it DOES help me a bit)

My question is basically this. It is incredibly hard for me to ask girls out. When I do my mouth does the cotton thing, my heart does some funky ass shit and just.. yea. My mind goes fluh. Of course with a girl who IS my holy grail and who has rejected me once before it is 100 times harder. I HAVE to ask her out. And time is ticking. She is going to college at the end of the summer (although there IS an outside chance I will go to the same college. I have to ask her out before she leaves ATLEAST) So any advice on how to soften the blow or whatever?

05-21-2003, 12:36 AM	#1 (permalink)
BBtB ClerkMan! Location: Tulsa, Ok.	*Insert advice about girls here* Okay, I had ALMOST finished this when my computer reset. This is the second time writing this. Hold on.. Before I get to my real question(s) I am going to give you all a little background on Katie and I. Our parents knew each other before we were born. She lived in Missouri untill she about 6 when she moved to Oklahoma with her family. They were often at our house because our moms were good friends and we had a farm. Life being funny and all that they (her family that is) ended up moving in with us for about 6 months. This was when she was about 9 or 10(Also I am a year older then her, just FYI because I keep giving these references in her age) Eventully her mom got back on her feet and moved back out but we (as two familys) stayed close for the next few years. At some point in all this she became my second real crush. Well as the only true constant in this world is time slowly the days passed into weeks then into months then into years. All that time I kept my feelings to myself as the fluctated from puppy love to .. something (because I dunno if I believe in true love but that is a topic for another time) back to puppy love. Then when I was around 14(ish) I finally got up the nerve to ask her out. I was shot down but hard. I remember I found a seculded place and cried for several hours. That was,as these things often are, the most tramatic experince in my short little love life. I never truely got over it. It is (part) of the reason I have only had 2 girlfriends. Of course I have only really asked out about 4 girls. To have a 50% yes ratio is quite good but relationship related things knows no logic. Well it was hard but I (thought I) got over her. I kept my mind busy with movies and (a few) other girls. Thinking of her often and comparing every girl I ever meet to her even though I don't often realize I even did it till later. Well I could go on like this awhile longer. I could make this about 3 times as long but none of it is important to my question (although it DOES help me a bit) My question is basically this. It is incredibly hard for me to ask girls out. When I do my mouth does the cotton thing, my heart does some funky ass shit and just.. yea. My mind goes fluh. Of course with a girl who IS my holy grail and who has rejected me once before it is 100 times harder. I HAVE to ask her out. And time is ticking. She is going to college at the end of the summer (although there IS an outside chance I will go to the same college. I have to ask her out before she leaves ATLEAST) So any advice on how to soften the blow or whatever? __________________ Meridae'n once played "death" at a game of chess that lasted for over two years. He finally beat death in a best 34 out of 67 match. At that time he could ask for any one thing and he could wish for the hope of all mankind... he looked death right in the eye and said ... "I would like about three fiddy"