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Your life is ultimately yours. There are plenty of people we meet daily who we never talk to again, and nonetheless don't feel remorse. Its a fact of life that we won't have a huge or good relationship with everyone we meet, and as a matter of fact its very unlikely. That said, feeling regret tells me that you still wish you could have a real relationship. The problem is, you have to be willing to forgive him. Forgiving does NOT mean condoning how he treated you, or anything like that. It means not letting his behavior or the naysayers' behavior bother you anymore. It's your life, your relationships, and your emotions. By letting someone else control these, you are losing part of yourself.
If you've forgiven him, you still have the choice whether to attempt a relationship or whether not to. You might think his attempt was half-assed, but if he's trying then you can hardly be one to judge his attempts. By resenting him for his previous behavior, you're just hurting yourself -- not him. Its likely that you'll forgive him for his previous behavior eventually, and then still not want a relationship. That's fine, but you've got to get over the past--first.
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