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Old 07-06-2005, 09:24 PM   #15 (permalink)
s3b
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I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so out of nowhere, we're talking online and i was just like WHY AM I SO SCARED OF ASKING HIM. (well besides the obvious dread of rejection) but yes, i started off slow with whether or not he thinks it's weird that everyone thinks we act SO flirtatious and asked how he felt especially since he has a GF, then i pushed forward and asked him "do you think our friendship is 100% platonic?" and he said "no, 80" and the funny thing is we both agreed that our friendship was TOTALLY 100% platonic until his birthday this year ..when we got drunk and went to a KILLERS (woohoo) concert.. and ended up holding hands and each other all night.. which was OUT OF NO WHERE because we had never been physical with each other before that. funny that we both had that day in mind when our feelings for each other changed.

so we talked about it a little, just how the chemistry between us is obviously more than friends, but the way he made it sound with his comment of "80% platonic" made me feel that i felt it a lot more than he did. but then right out of nowhere he sent me this and then signed off.

"i cant do anything about those feelings ah i ono we will see how you are when u get back from england, but i also believe that best friends also have some sort of potential so maybe u should try dru out" (( dru is another one of my best guy friends, who lately i worry that he has feelings for me because its 100% with dru on my part. but *the guy my posts have been about* doesnt believe me that its completely platonic))

WOW I FEEL COMPLETELY FREEEEEEEEE. besides his last IM which let me know we've been on the same page, i told him i had felt guilty that i had been feeling this way about him for months now but never said anything, and he said he felt the same way.. that it was like a secret we were keeping from each other. THANKS SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH EVERYONE for your help, and for pushing me to just get this figured out. -- and he just texted me again, "sorry to sign off so abruptly we have an awesome friendship lets just see what happens" .... WOW. i am blown away. even though itll be an entire year before anything could possibly happen between us, and that is only if we both still feel the same way.. i have to say that i am all <3 talk about a load off of my shoulders.
thanks everyone x1000000000000000

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