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Yes, this kind of trauma persists for decades and may not ever really go away. My mother still thinks of all romance as forms of prostitution because of a bad experience she had when she was a teenager. (She's not still married to my dad, how could she be?)
I kind of think she needs time alone. She needs to go to a couple of months of counseling by herself, with you as a supportive friend but not a lover, so she can have some time to get to know herself. Since she has been a sexual creature since she was 5 years old, she probably never got a chance to know herself as anything else, and that's important for her to be a complete person.
After she is feeling better, if she still likes you (and you haven't found someone else by then, since it could take a while) you two need to go to couples counseling so you can work on your sex lives together and help break down the fear she feels about you specifically.
This is a long, hard road (already has been, from the sound of it) but it sounds like you've been a saint. She is lucky to have someone as supportive as you to help her with this, but the real test, sadly, is time.
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