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Originally Posted by Squishor
I don't feel that having a child would complete me, I feel that a child would get in the way of me completing myself. I'm not willing to sacrifice my life for the sake of motherhood, although there is a part of me that wishes that I wanted that, because I'm sure I'm missing out on a wonderful experience. The fact is, I don't really like being around kids all that much and the whole idea of pregnancy and childbirth kind of repulses me.
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I agree. I have so many other aspirations for my life that the thought of marriage and having children scares me. This fear comes from feeling like because of the way my family was, I somehow think I am cursed with having a horrible marriage and screwing up my kids. I am also afraid that it's all just going to get in the way of what I want to do. I would be unhappy as a housewife and stay-at-home mom, and I would be unhappy if I wasn't there for my kids.
Another thing-- I have never taken care of a child before in my life. I would not know where to start, and even learning something like that has the potential to mess up a kid if I don't do it right.
Wow. This thread just made me realize a lot of issues I have with this fear.
I have a fear of failure, and once again... I need therapy.
