greyeyes

So I've been this girl for about two months now. To set the stage, it took about a month before we started having sex, so it was a slower relationship in that respect. I also just recently took a job at a summer camp a few hundred miles away for about two months starting mid June (so I dont have that many days to see her before my departure). This past weekend she told me that she was going to a concert and that she would call me when it was over. I didn't hear from her for three days, no phone calls or anything, so I started thinking that she got arrested or even worse, killed. So last night (it had been two full days since I had seen her and I had only a week left in town) I went over to her house to ask her roommates if she was OK or needed to get bailed out. I found her inhebreated with her roommates and a few friends (not her friends, her roommate's friends) just hanging out (she was on the phone with somebody when I found her). I was beyond pissed.

I mean does this seem wrong? It all kinda makes me feel clingy but I feel that I have some right to be since I'm gone in a few days.

Back to the story: I'm livid but I dont want to make a scene, especially when she's intoxicated, because it's not fair to yell at a drunk person. I just stand there, not saying much, as my anger turned to saddness my eyes emitted some tearlike substance (very strange). Well this freaked her out pretty badly (though she didn't say anything about it I knew it bothered her because she couldn't look at me). So now I know I'm pissed at her but I dont really want to loose her yet I dont think I should be with a person who is so closed minded about composed emotions. Yeah, she called me today, told me that she was going out to a bar with a friend.

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