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Locke00000 · 05-20-2005, 01:21 PM

This is a bit weird, as I don't regret the situation at all, but want to know how to explain it to my GF (or if I even should...*sigh*)

For the past few weekas a good friend of mine has been having trouble with her boyfriend (they have been seeing each other for somewhere around 2 years). She finally called it quits the other night. I spent the day with her the next day, as she was pretty depressed. Her and I have a great friend relationship, and we can talk about almost anything. Later in the evening, we got into a conversation about sex and why she morally wants to save herself, etc. She mentioned that fooling around had gotten pretty bland between her and her BF.

I mentioned some of the kinky stuff that my GF and I take part in, and she said she had a real curiosity for bondage, particularly being tied down. Fast forward 20 minutes and she is tied down to my bed with caution tape, chains, handcuffs, etc. She is wearing a nightgown, and it never ever comes off. Basically, I end up doing a lot of touching (nothing blatently sexual, but massaging her legs, her neck, stomach...the kind of almost-foreplay-but-not-quite type things). Eventually she says that she is getting tired, and that I'm obviously not very good at this.

I'll admit..its difficult when I'm not turned on, and cant really explore anything...so I tell her I'm going to take it up a notch, though she can stop it any time she wants..she agrees. Though the conversation right after that basically is:
her: what would (your gf) say about this?
me: what would (your ex-who she still is kinda all about) say?
her: he would be pissed.
me: Good.

I end up on top of her. She has a kind of power issue, and I basically started doing the whole "you realize you have no control..." type thing. Eventually she kinda freaked and started to struggle, so I pressed myself against her and held her down; pretty much just restraining her...though the sexual tension was obviously there. She continued to struggle, but eventually gave up through my convincing that she was getting no-where, that I was in control, etc. We got pretty close, and then she just kind-of stared into my eyes.

After a few seconds, she got this kind-of scared look. I told her that I know what she was afraid of, and I leaned forward as if to kiss her, but pulled back at the last second. She obviously wasn't scared, because the second time I was teasing her, she thrust her head up (bad Idea considering there was a chain around her neck..but she didn't seem to mind).

She seemed dejected a bit, and struggled some more, though she was tired, and her limited movement was already hampered by the restraints, so she didn't do much. Eventually she conceded, though we agreed we should stop.

I untied her, and she said she really enjoyed it, and wouldn't mind doing it again.

My problem. I really don't know if I should tell my GF about this. Or how I can explain it without it sounding like I was cheating on her. Because obviously she will start to jump to conclusions and it will become a lot worse in her mind...I just dont know... We didn't do anything sexual, it was just...fun.

Though what scares me is it was more fun than any sex I have ever had with my current gf. It was exhilerating, partially because it was stepping over a few of the limits that we had put into place, and was...I think, eye-opening for her. I was left with a euphoric feeling that had nothing to do with wanting sex, but was...I dont know...

That part I know I shouldnt tell her.

05-20-2005, 01:21 PM	#1 (permalink)
Locke00000 Tilted	Would you call this cheating... This is a bit weird, as I don't regret the situation at all, but want to know how to explain it to my GF (or if I even should...sigh) For the past few weekas a good friend of mine has been having trouble with her boyfriend (they have been seeing each other for somewhere around 2 years). She finally called it quits the other night. I spent the day with her the next day, as she was pretty depressed. Her and I have a great friend relationship, and we can talk about almost anything. Later in the evening, we got into a conversation about sex and why she morally wants to save herself, etc. She mentioned that fooling around had gotten pretty bland between her and her BF. I mentioned some of the kinky stuff that my GF and I take part in, and she said she had a real curiosity for bondage, particularly being tied down. Fast forward 20 minutes and she is tied down to my bed with caution tape, chains, handcuffs, etc. She is wearing a nightgown, and it never ever comes off. Basically, I end up doing a lot of touching (nothing blatently sexual, but massaging her legs, her neck, stomach...the kind of almost-foreplay-but-not-quite type things). Eventually she says that she is getting tired, and that I'm obviously not very good at this. I'll admit..its difficult when I'm not turned on, and cant really explore anything...so I tell her I'm going to take it up a notch, though she can stop it any time she wants..she agrees. Though the conversation right after that basically is: her: what would (your gf) say about this? me: what would (your ex-who she still is kinda all about) say? her: he would be pissed. me: Good. I end up on top of her. She has a kind of power issue, and I basically started doing the whole "you realize you have no control..." type thing. Eventually she kinda freaked and started to struggle, so I pressed myself against her and held her down; pretty much just restraining her...though the sexual tension was obviously there. She continued to struggle, but eventually gave up through my convincing that she was getting no-where, that I was in control, etc. We got pretty close, and then she just kind-of stared into my eyes. After a few seconds, she got this kind-of scared look. I told her that I know what she was afraid of, and I leaned forward as if to kiss her, but pulled back at the last second. She obviously wasn't scared, because the second time I was teasing her, she thrust her head up (bad Idea considering there was a chain around her neck..but she didn't seem to mind). She seemed dejected a bit, and struggled some more, though she was tired, and her limited movement was already hampered by the restraints, so she didn't do much. Eventually she conceded, though we agreed we should stop. I untied her, and she said she really enjoyed it, and wouldn't mind doing it again. My problem. I really don't know if I should tell my GF about this. Or how I can explain it without it sounding like I was cheating on her. Because obviously she will start to jump to conclusions and it will become a lot worse in her mind...I just dont know... We didn't do anything sexual, it was just...fun. Though what scares me is it was more fun than any sex I have ever had with my current gf. It was exhilerating, partially because it was stepping over a few of the limits that we had put into place, and was...I think, eye-opening for her. I was left with a euphoric feeling that had nothing to do with wanting sex, but was...I dont know... That part I know I shouldnt tell her.