rainheart

I think this little tidbit right here, although only part of the reason why you aren't completely open to the idea, is something to really think about.

So for a moment let's pretend other things weren't really factors for you- you couldn't contract STDs, and the places were clean as a whistle.

I mean you say that "I wouldn't want people to know I did it", so it seems like at the back of your mind, although you might not think of it that way, you could be saying: "If there was no way other people found out about this, and I didn't have to bear that sort of shame and guilt, I wouldn't really have a problem with this."

So then the question is... is it worth being looked down on by other people for doing something that you otherwise wouldn't have a big problem with (just a reminder once more that we aren't taking into consideration the other reasons which make you unsure about this).

And the answer for a lot of people might be "oh, I make my own decisions and don't care about the people who look down on me for doing something that I think is okay", but I guess what I really want to point out is that in reality it won't always be carried out that way.
This is me going on the assumption that you believe that you don't care how other people will judge you based on your actions.

So, I don't know, I think those two lines of what you wrote deserved some introspection.