There's a book called
Mindfulness in Plain English (by Venerable Henepola Gunaratana) that you should read.
Quote:
You get a good job. You fall in love. You win the game. And for a while, things are different. Life takes on a richness and clarity that makes all the bad times and humdrum fade away. The whole texture of your experience changes and you say to yourself, "OK, now I've made it; now I will be happy." But then that fades, too, like smoke in the wind. You are left with just a memory. That and the vague awareness that something is wrong.
But there is really another whole realm of depth and sensitivity available in life, somehow, you are just not seeing it. You wind up feeling cut off. You feel insulated from the sweetness of experience by some sort of sensory cotton. You are not really touching life. You are not making it again. And then even that vague awareness fades away, and you are back to the same old reality. The world looks like the usual foul place, which is boring at best. It is an emotional roller coaster, and you spend a lot of your time down at the bottom of the ramp, yearning for heights.
So what is wrong with you? Are you a freak? No. You are just human.
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Meditation sure helps, even if only to frustrate you in all the right ways.