My friends are actually really great, and I don't get made fun of, or anything like that at all. I'm friends with many of her friends, (which makes them my friends I guess
)and shes not the only girl that shows me attention, and that I'm friends with by far, but she's definately the first TRUE girl friend that I've had, where I'd do stuff with just her, as opposed to her and a group of people. And formernewt, I think its fairly clear that she's only interested in being friends. Plus, I know, very clearly that I need to get past the betrayal and paranoia, which hasn't been as bad as it once was lately, but is still a problem. I personally see counseling as a last resort, because I just don't like the thought of being mentally disected by someone I don't know. But if anyone has good experiences with couselors or therapists, please tell me what they're like, I am a bit curious. Right now I'm pretty much just looking for a way to get past it on my own, but with how long its been going on I don't know that I have the strength for it, which, it itself is a kinda depressing notion
. But thanks for the comments guys.