Originally Posted by f6twister

Right here is your dilema, you can't have it both ways. If you really want to make serious changes in your life, you need to force yourself past the laziness and go for it. If I were given the task of restructuring your life, this is what I would do:

1. Cut way down or stop the poker playing. If you are losing that much money and keep playing, you may be on track to develop a gambling problem. I would recommend stopping all together, at least until you get things back on track.

2. You want to be an air traffic controller? Do it! You never explain why, "it would take a lot of effort on my part and right now im not sure I can put forth the effort it would entail". Take a look at the FAA's job posting for air traffic contollers and see if you qualify.

3. If it makes you feel good and it aids in your life, keep going to church.

4. Talk to your fiance. Let her know how you are feeling and try to develop a plan.

5. Keep us updated on your progress. Even through many (or all) of us haven't met you face to face, we want to see you succeed and be happy in life.