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I've never been married, but I left a long-term (5 year) relationship because of lack of interest or caring. My boyfriend wouldn't call, wouldn't visit, wouldn't spend money. He was cold and manipulative, both emotionally and sexually. He wanted me to come visit him (long expensive train ride) 2-3 times a week, have sex, and then watch TV. That got BORING, not to mention I felt unloved and unlovable (plus he only liked the history channel--jk)! I'm not sure if I would have divorced him if I were married, though, because I put up with him for a very long time because I had never known any other man and didn't know things ought to be different; I thought my girlfriends who were telling me he was a loser were just being bitchy (they couldn't find a boyfriend of their own). I also felt very strongly that one should be loyal to one's mate, and that eveyone had their flaws, we're all equal, blah blah blah. I decided to get rid of him because I would be better off alone, but I kept dating him and agonizing about the decision, feeling helpless and scared, for another couple months before I met Kel and was convinced to dump the creep. Soon after I got over the stress of that, I was finally able to get off Prozac; that proved to me that I had made the right decision. If we were married and I had not met Kel, I think I would have stayed with him anyway, though, because I was such a coward and in so much pain from my depression that I wouldn't have had the guts to do it. I would either have had to make a relationship where we were basically just roommates and not lovers, so I could have my own life, or probably I would have started looking for jobs with high mortality rates. (Oh wait, I already was...)
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