Thanks Jess, I really appreciated your words. Empathy means a lot to me, seriously.
In my group counseling this week, I sort of had a revelation from my group members: that I was actually quite normal, and that I shouldn't feel so bad or guilty for going through some rough times right now. I get really down on myself for needing to cry so often, when really, it is a good coping mechanism for me and doesn't hurt anyone else. So I will cry with confidence from now on.
I think I still need to work on being social in the future, but I've decided to live by myself for another year so I have that "space" to just be myself and not feel like I'm burdening everyone who knows about my struggles. Sometimes I really just need the space to cry or be angry or just sad, and not worry about what others will think.
And yes, you and I do keep "bumping" into each other on TFP... I don't mind.