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I don't know if I got as low-feeling as you sound, but I can relate - boy, I keep finding you on all the threads I'm checking out!
Basically, I think there’s a lot of stress and pressure at this point in our lives (I’m also around the quarter-century mark). I went through a lot of lack of energy, lack of direction, hyper-criticism of myself, loneliness despite having Quadro, concern about “what am I doing with my life”, etc etc etc. It IS very hard – and you certainly don’t want your boyfriend to feel like it’s him, which was always my worry.
I got out of it by picking a direction – I took my balls (obviously figuratively since I’m female) in my hand and I jumped.
The absolute best thing you can do is to find someone to talk to, you’re totally right. I did, and the part that I needed most about it was having someone to vent to such that I didn’t feel guilty for hogging all the conversation. (another personal twitch.) I suspect that part might be useful for you too.
You’re not crazy or whining. You’re just going through a rough time that you haven’t navigated yet, that’s all. Vent all you like – but as Lindsay said… you need someone to talk to who’s a lot less likely to pass on their own damage!!
I’m sorry you’re having such a rough time. Trust me, more than a few people can relate to this.
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My heart knows me better than I know myself, so I'm gonna let it do all the talkin'.
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