I require assistance
This is a story, of me and a girl I met at college. she's a year older, i'm 19, she's 20.
ok so we met, and the day after she broke up with her boyfriend of a year and a half, they were pretty close, he was there for her when her dad died.. so yeah she has a deep attachent toward him. hes a dick. he doesnt care about anybody and hes a wast eof life, all her friends hate him, they would constantly break up and get back together. so finally she decided to break up with him for good. she got quickly attached to me, she really likes me, i know that, she would always tell me that, we did move very fast, but i know its alot mor ethen just a fuck friends thing, because of the way she acts, but heres the confusing part. she told me she wants to be just friends because she just got out of a relationship so she doesnt want a boyfriend, she doesnt want a relatioship. and yet she still acts the opposite with me, and so I ask her, and she says she knows, she can't control her self, she really likes me, and so she's very confused. and so i said fine. i don't care about having a relationship either.. where we are right now is fine with me. its been about a month and a half now, just recently she started talking to her ex again, she said they aren't fighting, and that she's really confused. so i asked her are you thinking of getting back together with him, because if you are.. you should let me know. she said she doesnt know, the thought has crossed her mind, i asked what thought.. she said "the thought that ' why delay the inevitable' " meaning. shes bound to get back together with him because of the history they have, and yet she KNOWS its a horrible decision, all her friends hate him, she knows hes not a good person. hes an asshole. clear and simple. so i'm stuck in a dilemma. I'm getting attached, but if I continue this, i will get even more attached, and I have pretty bad odds here. she's not really giving me much security
I kinda feel like I shouldn't involve myself anymore.. I know i should just be a good friend, but how can I do that? what if she picks him over me? i can't be in 2nd place, and still be friends with her, that would never work, not with my type of personality.
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