abaya

JamesB, I dunno what to tell you other than I know it sucks, and will suck for a long time. I've definitely been there, and I was down for a very long time. But eventually you will find a way out of the fog and start to feel again. I don't know if I'd suggest keeping yourself busy... sometimes it helps, sometimes it just delays the grieving process. But definitely let yourself feel whatever you can, let it run through you and drown you at times, don't try to stop it... over time the waves will lessen (and I'm talking months or longer here, not weeks or days; don't force yourself to move on before it's time), but till then it's just gonna hurt like a bitch. Keep talking to your friends, even on TFP, and express that process out loud as much as you can.

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And think not you can direct the course of Love;
for Love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.
--Khalil Gibran