Dude, I wish you the best of luck. We all know how it feels to have your heart broken. Remember though that when one door closes another one opens. Trite I know, but frequently true. It sounds like you did the right thing and no doubt you will meet someone who will appreciate that.
For now, even though it sounds like you're fairly calm, avoid doing anything unreasonable. When you're hurt like this you can go into a total tailspin, your brain can start pulling all kinds of weird stunts, make you think about doing things that aren't you. Don't do them. Eventually you'll get better and you don't want to have done anything that you're not proud of. Doesn't feel like it now, but it happens. Oh, and don't drink too much. It'll make you more prone to doing crazy shit.
In the meantime, cut off all contact with your ex ASAP. Get her stuff out of your place, put all the pictures of her away, don't answer her phone calls or e-mails, remove as many reminders of her as you can. These things can only prolong your pain. Personally, I don't recommend destroying things. Years from now you may actually want to remember these times. And if you don't, then destroy them then, not now in the heat of passion.
fatbob is totally right and you should hold onto that. What has happened is probably a good thing, you can move on and find someone who is actually worthy of you.
Good luck...
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