I'm through with counseling as I have found it has made me worse by keeping unwanted memories around. Since I've stopped, I've been much better and it's never ever on my mind now.
The pain is from penetration, when it stretches. Emotional? I never thought of that actually. I bet you're right. I will talk to her when she comes back, she just had a baby.
I have to wear panty liners all the time otherwise my panties will get ruined, and when I'm turned on there's even more. I have no access to lube or anything of that nature.
It hurt when the doctor put her fingers in as well. Then again, I was really nervous, so I'm sure I brought it on to myself, then.