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I am sorry to hear about your childhood, I hate to hear about this, it makes me sick. Please hang in there. I don't even know where to start, and I am hoping that you get better, not only physically, but also mentally. Please remember that men will watch porn whether you want them to or not. It's what they do, it's a part of them, it's their curiousity. He isn't watching it because he feels those women are more attractive, but because he is using it as a way of satisfying himself since you're currently turned off by the whole ordeal. My best advice to you would be to seek help, especialy with that childhood issue, nothing will go right until you are content inside. Until you feel totally strong and loved within, you won't be able to cope with this. Professional help does work, perhaps a doctor can prescribe something for you while in the process which does it a lot also. And then you are try speaking to your husband about this. But please, don't be too harsh on him, it's a part of him, he isn't looking at these women's faces, he's looking for an escape, a way to turn himself on. Explain to him that this is affecting you, communicate with him, he is your husband, I am sure he will understand. And before I leave you, I want you to know that you can do this. Stay strong and remember that happiness comes from within, you have to make you happy, not your husband, not anyone else, just you. Take care.
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