My Mum passed away just before xmas last year. She had been sick for a while, but when she went, it was actually quite sudden (she had a heart attack, aged just 62).
So now, nearly 3 months later, I miss her more than ever. She and I had grown apart as I grew older and had a family of my own. I also moved away 10 years ago from the state where she lived, so we didn't see each other a lot. We talked on the phone regularly, though, and right now I'm feeling that's what I am missing most about having her about. The ability to pick up the phone and just call her...to say hi. To tell her about how my kids are settling into their new school. To tell her about the man I have met (and to get the lowdown on how he may or may not be astrologically matched to me). Just to tell her I love her.
There's just a bunch of things I miss having her around for. I'm heading up to the coast tomorrow to scatter half of her ashes on the ocean - something she used to talk about when I was younger and she was feeling particularly fatalist. The other half are interred down near her home - her husband (my 84 year old step-father) makes an hour long round trip each day to lay fresh red roses at the site of her plaque.
I miss her. I look at my daughters (aged 5 and 11) and hope they don't have to feel this way for a long time. I doesn't matter how old you are....girls still need their Mums from time to time.
Thanks for listening, ladies.
