MEAD

Thanks for giving me your time, I really apperciate it, honestly. I can't arugue any part of it, you are right. I do lack confidence about my realtionships. I used to be, and still mainly am, very introverted and interested in entertaining myself while I'm alone by having lots of hobbies, so I think it's still quite amazing sometimes that I am able to be so, unexplainibly connected to her. In that regard we are different, shes a social person who needs others around her. And I realize now that I'm getting upset with her mainly because she's not acting like I am. I guess I'm ashamed at being so reserved and lonesome, and then having her be so different, makes my faults aparent to me. I do need that confidence you speak of, lol.
I feel as if I have turned this sadness about being apart into jealousy and anger. So I've in a sense avoided dealing with it by just shifting how I feel about it. I guess I decided that it was easier to get mad and saturate myself in anger rather than be sad. Oh well, I care too much about her and our realtionship to let this get in the way. Thank you for just laying it down for me.