MEAD

I have to admit now, I never veiwed myself as a jealous guy, I think as a kid I was highly obnoxious and wanted everything that anyone else had. But I thought I matured out of that, however now it feels as if I didn't mature but just grew dormant and lifeless. I feel as if through my most of my teen years I just shut down as a person and stopped growing emotionaly. Though since I have found a girl I truly am in love with, it all seems to have come bleeding back into me. Now to find someone who can do this for me is wonderful, however what has come back to me are the emotions of a child. I find myself getting very jealous because of her and I'm sick and tired of that feeling. Because I get angry and it seems as if I shut down any other feeling excpet anger. How do I go about growing out of this?