if i were her, i'd be pissed too. best advice i can give you--go home. apologize and be prepared to take some crap in a variety of forms. even if she can/does get over it, she's going to be angry for a while.
while i understand you felt fed up with your situation and slacked off--think of how she's going to take that. you could be with her, but you chose not to make it happen. while you were both making sacrifices i'm sure, hers revolved around what you were telling her. she was trying to support you and prolly saw your actions as a way of you telling her that you were in no rush to be with her and the kids.
she's had what? 6, 7 months of it just being her and the kids? much of that by your choice. and now you're about to come "home" and play like everything is ok (thinking of this from her perspective here!). she wanted you, she needed you and you not only let her down you lied about it. she's mad--really mad. and the trust issue is big. how does she know you won't pull a stunt like that again?
you have a lot to work through and i wish you all the best. go home and be patient with her. if you can afford counseling, you might wanna give it a try. prolly not a bad idea to think long and hard about why you lied as well, cause if she's anything like the majority of women, she's going to want to know.
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