If you have doubts about her, and your doubts continued all the way through one of her visits, they're not going to go away. If you break up with her, you may realize it was stupid later on, but you're at the point where you're not going to be happy with her no matter what.
Once you get it into your head that something's wrong, it doesn't get better.
I've been on the receiving end of this, and it sucks. But (unless you're a better actor than my girlfriend was, and she was an actress) your girlfriend can probably tell SOMETHING's wrong, she just doesn't know what. If you break up with her she'll be devastated for a while and then realize you were a douchebag and move on (even if you weren't really a douchebag, she'll realize that you were).
She'll be fine--just don't expect to be friends with her or anything. You told her you were in love with her long enough that it constitutes a pretty major betrayal at this point to say "I'm sorry, I wasn't, we need to break up." She'll hate you, and rightly so, but it's even worse to KEEP leading her on like this.
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