soundmotor

It is not often that you get to see indentical male & female counterparts so closely and observe their scurrilous & tawdry behaviour firsthand! This is behavioural anthropology at its finest, 2 shitbags getting on with each other!

So, Loser #1 (showing both immaturity as well as poorly developed social skills) takes up w/ Loser #2 (showing -coincidentally- both immaturity as well as poorly developed social skills) and has (choose 1):

1) a long-lasting & fulfilling relationship based on the prinicipals of mutual respect, trust, common values, ideals, interests, & committment.

2) a platonic relationship filled with long discussions about devoting oneself to the betterment of mankind as well as acting on those desires.

3) cheap monkey-sex for a few weeks that quickly degenerates into boredom, petty squabbling, lack of common ground, intolerance of the mere sight of the other, possibly an STD or two, and generalized dissatisfaction with life. Possibly guilt, perhaps even regret, and years later a return to the singular thought "Why was I such an immature little shitbag back then?". Although, most likely, neither will ever become self-realized enough, lacking the basic & innate sense of morals integral to most vertebrates, to have that insight & will continue as a spectator in life wondering why, oh why, they always have such bad luck? You however will have moved on!

Hang in there kid, you are nearly to the threshold of seeing your way through. Don't give up, get out & do something. Don't worry about making her jealous. That is a natural response & the wrong one too. You don't want her back, she is, as you are seeing firsthand, beneath your station. Use the opportunity to propel yourself forward as clearly, had you stayed together, she would have held you back!

You, young man, have just been released from a potential life-long prison!

soundmotor