la petite moi

Both my parents physically abused me until I was 15 years old, and then a social worker put a stop to it. My dad blamed my sister and I for hurting my mother, saying that it was all our fault. My mother held a grudge against both of us (mostly my sister for telling the truth right away to the social worker) for a couple years after that, hardly ever talking to us, and when she did, it would be mostly verbal abuse. When I was around 14 or 15, my mom drove me to become anorexic with her constant reminders to me that I should 'lose five pounds' even when I was at the ideal weight. I still struggle with my image, though I don't starve myself.

Currently however...

My mother is a 55-year-old teenager that doesn't really care anymore that my sister is an academic failure (1.5 GPA) and trashes our room that we share (yes, my sister and I still share a room; whereas, my mother gets 2.5 rooms to herself, plus laundry room space). Now that she's a breast cancer survivor she is constantly whining about how fat she is, and how she needs to lose more weight (shes 5'2 and around 125 pounds...WHATEVER). She thinks the entire world revolves around her, basically, and talks about how shitty her marriage is. She curses ALL the time, and when I ask a simple question she'll talk on it for about thirty minutes (repeating herself constantly).

My dad works all the time and anytime I go anywhere, I get twenty questions.

My parents also want me to be perfect in everyway, but treat my achievements like nothing.