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Don't worry. The great thing about the tfproject, I've found, is you can just completely open up without having to be embarrassed. Everyone here is very supportive and won't judge you. And if they do, you'll probably never meet them in your life.
I know just how you must be feeling today, it being Valentine's Day. I hope it's some comfort that people here can empathise with you.
My now ex-love of life has left today for a holiday with her friends, and I think her complete absence has really brought it home that it's all over. The thing that worries me the most is that her ending it like this has made all our time together meaningless. I think that this girl has seen me naked and crying (Not at the same time, that's just wrong) and I'm almost ashamed. Is it just me that feels this or do you know what I mean?
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there are... nights, when it's impossible to sleep, and your days fall completely out from under you. in the glimpses of familiarity, panic, fear, loss. the dull ache in the pitt of your stomach. i feel ya dude, for sure.
fortunatly for me, it's been just long enough, become just comfortable enough, to deal with it. hopefully by now it's obvious that there's some shit that sticks with you, no matter what - there are some things, that time will never destroy, which is cool - because it makes us the people we are, and undoubtedly, stronger in our ability to handle these kind of situations - if and when they come up.
as unhealthy as it probably really is, there's only one thing that's saved my ass during my (multiple) breakups with my ex. ignore it. all those feelings, all that pain, just let it go - it's not important, not worth the time it wastes. you will - inevitably, meet some other person, who could possibly also be the love of your life - and that person - could - also be the greatest loss you'll ever encouter.
think of it this way - today, my boss went to the florist around the corner: $150 dollars for a dozen roses, probably not even the kind you'd hope to afford, "the bargain roses". and there are millions of sorry saps out there right now, dishing out cash on something that's just going to wither up and die. and - i'm not saying there's anything wrong with buying roses for someone you love - but it's a luxury that the single guys don't have to worry about it.
i'm not going to be a hipocrit though, it can always be rough. years later even... again there are some things that time will never be kind enough to remove from us. especially on days like today...