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ziadel · 01-28-2005, 10:03 AM

so, yeah, I'm a student at Modern welding school, and its a really relaxed learning environment, so I've become great friends with my teachers. The only problem is that one of them, has some, ideas, or seems to not be as repulsed by certain ideas that I feel everyone should be...basically, I have a teacher, we'll call him the Modern Welding Mad Man (MWMM for short), first thing I ever noticed about him was the lightning bolt on his welding hood and his leathers, just one single lightning bolt, which reminded me of the SS thing, just one S type lightning bolt, ok, whatever, mebbe he just likes lightning...
so anyways, I get talking to him some more, and its become that he holds at least SOME of the nazi ideals to be true, he was telling me about this documentary on PBS about auschwitz, and he was like, did you watch it, and I said, eh, I tried, I started crying tho, and he was like, why, and I told him my grandmother was there, and hes like, 'oh really!?, you should have watched it, it did a good job of explaining what it was originally supposed to be and how it became what it was' and I was like, 'you mean how it became a death camp?' and he just goes, 'yeah'
anyways, I know he was a skinhead when he was younger, he got kinda pissed off when I mentioned I would never own a german car as those companies were started by the reich, and I won't even use Bayer aprin (they knocked out the Zyklon B)

so I dunno, the weird thing is, back in highschool, I woulda fucking laid this guy out, or at least gotten my ass kicked trying for even THINKING this shit. But now, I find myself being more accepting, saying things like, well, if he wants to think that way, fine, thats fine. As long as hes not shoveling people into ovens, he can think whatever he wants... and I find myself getting very pissed off and disappointed AT MYSELF. He is a great welder and I have learned a LOT from him, but this is just kinda fucked up. I dunno what to do, I need to find a way to get along, but not feel badly for settling for that....

I dunno, sorry for the rant, but it just makes me feel shitty...

01-28-2005, 10:03 AM	#1 (permalink)
ziadel Myrmidon Location: In the twilight and mist.	when you make a friend and your angry at yourself because of it.... so, yeah, I'm a student at Modern welding school, and its a really relaxed learning environment, so I've become great friends with my teachers. The only problem is that one of them, has some, ideas, or seems to not be as repulsed by certain ideas that I feel everyone should be...basically, I have a teacher, we'll call him the Modern Welding Mad Man (MWMM for short), first thing I ever noticed about him was the lightning bolt on his welding hood and his leathers, just one single lightning bolt, which reminded me of the SS thing, just one S type lightning bolt, ok, whatever, mebbe he just likes lightning... so anyways, I get talking to him some more, and its become that he holds at least SOME of the nazi ideals to be true, he was telling me about this documentary on PBS about auschwitz, and he was like, did you watch it, and I said, eh, I tried, I started crying tho, and he was like, why, and I told him my grandmother was there, and hes like, 'oh really!?, you should have watched it, it did a good job of explaining what it was originally supposed to be and how it became what it was' and I was like, 'you mean how it became a death camp?' and he just goes, 'yeah' anyways, I know he was a skinhead when he was younger, he got kinda pissed off when I mentioned I would never own a german car as those companies were started by the reich, and I won't even use Bayer aprin (they knocked out the Zyklon B) so I dunno, the weird thing is, back in highschool, I woulda fucking laid this guy out, or at least gotten my ass kicked trying for even THINKING this shit. But now, I find myself being more accepting, saying things like, well, if he wants to think that way, fine, thats fine. As long as hes not shoveling people into ovens, he can think whatever he wants... and I find myself getting very pissed off and disappointed AT MYSELF. He is a great welder and I have learned a LOT from him, but this is just kinda fucked up. I dunno what to do, I need to find a way to get along, but not feel badly for settling for that.... I dunno, sorry for the rant, but it just makes me feel shitty... __________________ Ron Paul '08 Vote for Freedom Go ahead and google Dr. Ron Paul. You'll like what you read.