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Originally Posted by qtpye4u84
I know. To bad my life isnt drawn out on a map. Well, thank you all for your help I am going to have to do something. I wish I was born a man though.
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Life isn't drawn out on a map because we're all just people making free will choices . . . plus, that would be super boring, but might sound much easier at the moment in your life
It's not any easier for men

Everyone goes through this, you are not alone.
I am sorry for all the tough crap you are going through. Relationships are not easy and growing as an individual comes with heartache and facing your fears. but i know it's really tough
Firstly, it's hard to decide what is best for yourself
Secondly, it's hard to implement what is best for yourself.
It sounds as though you had made up your mind about what was best . . . but on the other hand, you are having a hard time implementing what you decided.
Figure out who you are first and love yourself for who you are, not as part of a couple . . . but who you are as an individual. Eventually, we'll all be little old ladies and we'll have to live alone someday anyway right? And you'll have to like the company you keep when alone . . .
If it's only about you being afraid of being alone for a while . . . seriously, get a dog . . . they make a lovely companion to sleep with at night and great jogging partners
Seriously though . . . you sound like a wonderful intelligent young woman . . . you deserve to be happy today and tomorrow and all the years of your life . . . But to be happy, you need to figure out who you are . . . Deep down, only you know what the best decision is for yourself and your life.
take care!!
sweetpea