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Having miss the first time we were supposed to see each other had haunted me up until last night already, and it still do, somewhat. I often ponder what if we met sooner and started things sooner, it wouldn't be this screwed up. So the thought of passing up on this opportunity, I know for sure it'll bite me for a long time, perhaps even for the rest of my life. But I can't think for myself like this, I gotta think for her too. It's driving me crazy trying to come up with a solution that would not hurt her, while still wanting to be with her....
So I'm facing some issues here: Be with her, and try my damnest not to hurt her, I can't guarantee that it won't happen though. Or I stop it this night, and the curiosity of "what ifs" forever haunts me. And of course, there's also the idea of: if it didn't meant to be, then why force it? Why not end it from the beginning?
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Him: Ok, I have to ask, what do you believe?
Me: Shit happens.
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