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If the issue is that you've become aware of a tendency of his that you weren't aware of before that makes you think he can't give you what you want, then by all means cut ties.
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I think that snags it. I am someone who needs a constant line oc communication. Even if it is a promise "I will tell you later." - I was to immature this summer though to accept that in him. I had to know THEN. My impaitence was what shot me in the end. My impaitence to be there for him and do something to help - when I could not even do anything for myself.
It takes Two to Tango - and he is not to fully blame, but I can't take several weeks of waiting to see what our relationship will be like the next time we get together. My next time will be different, because I hopefully plan on learnign from this - and I have my regrets - but he too was a newbie at romance, and we together did not have the skills to keep things at the level they were over a long distance period of several months.
My expectations were high - but we were both "high" on eachother when we left and had yet to see the truly down parts of our natures. I truly beleive that if I had been physically there I would have been better able to understand - but then I would not have learned so much over loosing him.
Adjusting at this point is hopeless. There is nothing there to adjust to - because he is even unwilling to adjust to what I need as a friend. I need a friend who will search me out once in a blue moon. I want my friend back more at this point - but I can't be going and doing the getting, ifin you know what I mean.
I am just a bit lost right now. I am a do'er and I have nothing to do but sit and be okay with myself. the hardest thing I have ever faced - but I must/have to do this. This is my project for the next three week break from school.