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Memalvada · 12-02-2004, 11:42 PM

Hmm.. I have a hard time tryinng to explain what I feel and think so please bear with me....

I was born into a roman catholic family. And being form a country in Latin America where roman catholicism has really deep roots and influence, then I really had no choice than to become a raoman catholic like the rest of the people around me. My parents raised me as a catholic, although i dont consider that I got a good catholic upbringing, mainly cuz my dad doesnt practice the religion, and he doesnt like it, but he does believe in God.

Well anyways, when I was a kid, I never questioned God or religion, and just swallowed everything that was spoon-fed to me. About a year ago, on request of my mom I joined this church group, which is targeted to teenagers. But I was only on it for like 3 months before I moved to go and study abroad. Well anyways, on hindsight, this group brainwashes kids. I can see it with my ex-gf who also joined the group... I mean, they have brainwashed her so much, I mean, she's a completely different person right now. She says she's happy, which is a good thing, but she's so close minded now, so conservative, so fanatical... I dont like that attitude, but at least she's happy.

Now that Im coming out of my teens, and I have been fairly isolated form religious influence, Ive begun seriously questioning everything I've been told. I mean, there are so many things I dont understand, things that over the years poeple have told me for facts, but now that I look back and reason, i dont find a satisfactory answer... For example, if God created everything, why the hell did he create evil? And whats up with the holy trinity, I mean, supposedly there's just one god, but the holy trinity is like 3-in-1 adn they act independently or something... I just dont get it.. I am unwilling to believe everything I've been spoon-fed, which Ive begun to consider as outdated beliefs and rule systems. And I am unwilling to be tied down by these rules that i dont believe in.

My religion (?) desnt make me any better than any other person, nor does it make me any worse, nor Im a worse person if i stop believeing in something.

Oh, and for the record, for now I do believe there is some sort of superior being which created humans, though I doubt that this being is everywhere and watches over us 24/7.

... Just my own personal experience and views...

edit:
Ok I was just talking to my ex, and I tried to get her and explain these things I dont understand. Again she coulnt provide with a satisfactory answer and told me it was a matter of faith. I dont see the point in believing blindly in something (this is the way I see faith as), specially if those beliefs are based on something which some people wrote about thousands of years ago, people which had (and I hope I am not offending anyone) limited knowledge of the world around them and therefore attributed everything to the will of a superior being.

12-02-2004, 11:42 PM	#35 (permalink)
Memalvada Psycho Location: South of the border	Hmm.. I have a hard time tryinng to explain what I feel and think so please bear with me.... I was born into a roman catholic family. And being form a country in Latin America where roman catholicism has really deep roots and influence, then I really had no choice than to become a raoman catholic like the rest of the people around me. My parents raised me as a catholic, although i dont consider that I got a good catholic upbringing, mainly cuz my dad doesnt practice the religion, and he doesnt like it, but he does believe in God. Well anyways, when I was a kid, I never questioned God or religion, and just swallowed everything that was spoon-fed to me. About a year ago, on request of my mom I joined this church group, which is targeted to teenagers. But I was only on it for like 3 months before I moved to go and study abroad. Well anyways, on hindsight, this group brainwashes kids. I can see it with my ex-gf who also joined the group... I mean, they have brainwashed her so much, I mean, she's a completely different person right now. She says she's happy, which is a good thing, but she's so close minded now, so conservative, so fanatical... I dont like that attitude, but at least she's happy. Now that Im coming out of my teens, and I have been fairly isolated form religious influence, Ive begun seriously questioning everything I've been told. I mean, there are so many things I dont understand, things that over the years poeple have told me for facts, but now that I look back and reason, i dont find a satisfactory answer... For example, if God created everything, why the hell did he create evil? And whats up with the holy trinity, I mean, supposedly there's just one god, but the holy trinity is like 3-in-1 adn they act independently or something... I just dont get it.. I am unwilling to believe everything I've been spoon-fed, which Ive begun to consider as outdated beliefs and rule systems. And I am unwilling to be tied down by these rules that i dont believe in. My religion (?) desnt make me any better than any other person, nor does it make me any worse, nor Im a worse person if i stop believeing in something. Oh, and for the record, for now I do believe there is some sort of superior being which created humans, though I doubt that this being is everywhere and watches over us 24/7. ... Just my own personal experience and views... edit: Ok I was just talking to my ex, and I tried to get her and explain these things I dont understand. Again she coulnt provide with a satisfactory answer and told me it was a matter of faith. I dont see the point in believing blindly in something (this is the way I see faith as), specially if those beliefs are based on something which some people wrote about thousands of years ago, people which had (and I hope I am not offending anyone) limited knowledge of the world around them and therefore attributed everything to the will of a superior being. __________________ "The weak are food for the strong, so die and let me feast!" - Makoto Shishio (RK) Last edited by Memalvada; 12-02-2004 at 11:57 PM..