Well hi everyone,
this is like part two of my story which was beginning with the thread at
http://www.tfproject.org/tfp/showthread.php?t=75269
It's now a little less than a week since she left. I think this was the most horrible week in my life. Allthough I have spent much time with friends and had some fun, everytime I get all alone I start to cry for her.
Almost all things I see and think are somewhat related to her. I still love her - perhaps even more then before. I am pretty sure that I need her back, allthough I know that this isn't the best thing to do
Actually I don't know how to get on without her. I have never realized how much I need her to get happy. In this week I have barely smiled or laughed (normally I do that all 5 minutes or so ...) and drank/smoked much too much in this time.
I had no contact for the last 6 days to her. Some days ago her mother called me and asked me how she felt because she couldn't reach her by phone ... damn she got nerves.
Today I wrote her a sms with a content like
Quote:
hey xxx, I miss you so much :'( when will you come back? I do really need to meet you to talk to you. Please call me. I love you.
xxx
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She didn't answer till now. I guess her cellphone is switched off or battery is empty.
Out of a mood I took a long walk today and walked over at her flat and saw that her boyfriend was at home already (lives very close to her) but her room was dark. I get pretty mad when I imagine both of them together - and I hate myself for that. Damn I'm screwed
Well now here's my question: How can I win her heart back? Or somehow get along with my situation. Luckyly I have some friends to talk about this.
Some friend said that each breakup has a certain ammount of tears to cry for. It's the best to spend them as fast as you can to get over it.
My Head says 'let her go' but somewhat the heart can't tell this my heart
Any good advice for a broked hearted guy?