Yes, almost always when I was younger. I just didn't know what else to do and thought that I was supposed to show something in order to make the guy feel like he was the next best thing to a bag of chips. It wasn't until I was over 30 that I had my first orgasm on my own (bought a vibrator and a book) and gained some confidence and the ability to tell a man what pleased me. Since then, I haven't had a problem with telling a guy that it just ain't happening and being OK with it, but I mostly just get off on my own now. Vibrators and my imagination are my best friends.
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