Originally Posted by ratbastid

Look, if I were you I wouldn't worry so much about his sexual needs as I would about yours. From what you've described here, you're extremely suppressed in the area of your sexuality. While that may not seem like a problem from where you are... Imagine if your taste buds were broken and you could only taste 10% of any flavor. And imagine you never knew anything other than that. It'd be "fine", right? "Chocolate? Whatever. It's not that great." That's sort of what you're describing here.

I know that having a horny boyfriend adds guilt to the equation, but that's not going to help anything, and he's definitely not the reason for you to take any action about this. I strongly recommend councelling or therapy to deal with your trauma so that YOU can live the life YOU want to live.