SilverScooter

you obviously felt pressured by your surroundings (media, friends, etc.) but fortunately (or unfortunately, depending on your POV) discovered the sometimes meaningless construct of sex by having it. i think you may have had a skewed view of sex before actually doing it, expecting more than it actually was. personally, i enjoy sex because of the closeness that comes with it, sex does not make couples closer, IMO, it just happens to occur when couples should feel close.

i think that you may be more like me than like your friends in that you look for what leads to sex (the intimate conversations, the time spent together) more than the sex itself. i treat sex as a sign that we are comfortable enough to move into such an intimate, exposing act rather than as the sweaty mess that it actually is.

but then again, you might not be like me, you might have your own reasons and i'm sure this thread and its varying views will help you figure out what it is.

and soloist, don't be so nearsighted, open yourself to people who may not be satisfied through pure physicality. no one will get anywhere looking into the cut and dry...

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and that's the end of that chapter...