new thread same shit. seriously stop feelings sorry for yourself and actually try doing something about it...or continue to feel shitty until life passes you by..either way i personally dont care. you have the tools, stop make excusses for not using them.
http://www.tfproject.org/tfp/showthread.php?t=65157
Now i dont personally know you but reading some of the various posts you make on this board you have a very negative outlook on things. maybe an attitude change will help you look at things with a positive outlook and help you accomplish your "goal".