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Originally Posted by phyzix525
Why not. God damn it. Why can't I been the one who is imature and irresponsible. Fuck why do I have to be the one that gets fucked over? She is ruining my life, why can't I ruin hers?
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phyzix, I couldn't find where it said how old your kids might be in this but I'll give you a point of view that you might need. If your kids are old enough to see whats happening and be affected by all this then you have the only reason you need to be the mature and responsible one in this. I'm a stepfather of two kids right now who dealt with their parents divorce at the age of 6 and 8. They remember everything and when they truly need something important then they come to their mother and I, we were the responsible and mature people.
On the topic of missing her and stuff, its alright to feel that way. You loved her, still do most likely, and missing her is quite natural. What you will have to do is acknowledge that its over and grieve about it. Theres absolutely nothing wrong or crazy about feeling that way. The sooner you accept that its over and that its ok to be upset about not being married to her anymore then the sooner that you can go on with your life WITH your children.
You will need to move forward and take care of your emotions and mental state quickly, because if you are not ok with yourself, you will not be ok with your children and your children will start being 'not ok with you'.
I wish you the best of luck in moving forward and getting your business together. take care of those kids. You will be amazed at how much more important they become to you.
