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Good advice. May I add this: You are focusing on your degree - which is good - but you feel it's worthless. Please stop thinking that way. In addition to focusing on your degree, you also need to start thinking about other skills you have that may be useful in the workplace such as, programming, editing, typing, writing, analysis, et cetera. Make an assessment of every skill, no matter how slight or trivial you think it is, and I'll bet you'll be surprised at just how many skills you have. Confidence sells when skills may be lacking. Start looking at yourself in a more positive light.
Next, you are in college. These are the some of the best years of your life, so enjoy them as much as you can. It's an experience you cannot duplicate in the workworld. You say you have no friends now, but I think you need to look a little deeper into some of the casual acquaintances you have (classmates, gym mates, lab partners, etc) and try to develop friendships (and potential business contacts) with them. Also, friends don't necessarily have to be people in your age group. I had better friendships with older people when I was in college. Start talking - a simple good morning - to older people you encounter in the grocery store, your professors, the janitors, heck, anybody. Not only can they help with job prospects, life lessons, post-graduation living arrangements, they can also offer their own unique perspectives on life and living. Who knows, you may be able to arrange living quarters with an older person in exchange for chores or simple companionship.
There are times in your life when you are going to have to be brave enough to look at a situation that is troubling you, or that does not offer you an equitable exchange, and be able to just say (and mean it) f*** it, and just keep on getting up. Start fresh. You're young enough, do not have financial, work or family responsibilities to tie you down, so sit down and think about all the things you'd like to do, and try to accomplish a few of those things.
As for the ex-girlfriend, do yourself a BIG favor, and drop her like a hot rock permanently. She is a manipulative, selfish, and self-centered person. You don't need anyone like that in your life. Period. End of sentence. The former friends sound as though they don't have too much bottom, nor were they very loyal. You need better friends, but before you go out looking for new friends, you need to work on becoming a better friend to yourself. Start treating yourself like you'd like your friends to treat you.
Finally, there is a difference between being lonely and being alone. Cherish the moments of solitude. These rare moments are good times for self-reflection.
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