I appreciate the advice. Unfortunately, I think I know what I need to do. I'm not prepared to take responsibility for someone elses child. It has not come to a point where I need to make that decision but it will definitely be a bridge I'll have to cross in the future. We would both be better off if that decision was made earlier on.
I have spent some time with her daughter and she is a very cool kid. Her whole family has been very accepting of me which is very nice. It just makes it that much harder.
I was a bastard child that grew up with no family so it has been nice to get a sense of what 'family' feels like. I just hope that her daughter's father becomes man enough to take care of his responsibility. I know all too well what it feels like to grow up without a father and it breaks my heart to see it happen to such a sweet kid. I just don't think I could fill those shoes.
Of course things would be very different if she was my daughter. That would make things so much easier. I guess the fact that I have a choice in this matter is what makes this difficult.
Thanks again.
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