klep, you're what, 18-19? Be happy that you've lived life to that point without a major loss of a loved one. You are fortunate indeed. I'm not taking away from your grief, it's still very difficult to get through.
On the GF, losses like that are hard, but a 3-4 month relationship is still very short. There will be other women that you will meet and fall in love with, hopefully that was the last one that will break your heart.
Friends...hmm, that's a tough one. You'll make friends-good friends-in time. Meanwhile just hang out with people that have similar interests, go to parties, etc.
None of these is earth-shattering on their own, but piled all together...hoooo-boy, not so good. Hang in there, pal, things will get better. You can't bring your grandma back, but you can remember the warm memories you had of her. You will find a new GF, probably one that makes your heart sing...when you find that one, you'll know. You will always have friends where ever you go, they just aren't always in the most obvious places.
Everyone goes through all of it and we all survive. None of it's easy...just don't dwell on the past.
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It was like that when I got here....I swear.
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