BigDonkey2

Theres more to this personal trainer that to just say screw it. I know he'll let me pay him later, but this is somthing that I've been working towards my whole life. I want to become a professional baseball player and I've been working on this goal all my life. This year is my year to get drafted. If I wasn't so involved in getting drafted I wouldn't have a personal trainer in the first place. I really want to make this happen and she's making me feel bad for not coming. I got an email saying "I know you love me blah blah blah" and "I guess you don't understand and there is a difference between living here and taking a little vacation." That doesnt make me feel any better about this. I already feel like shit for telling her that I'm not going to go. I'll email her later today and see what she can do. This whole thing is really stressing me out. I know that if I dont go then I would go pick her up at the airport for sure. I would hope that would make up for not going, but somehow I don't think it will, but I know it would be a nice surprise. Her letters say one thing but her emails say another. Her letters say that its ok if I dont come and we'll come another time but her email says that I don't understand and that I'm being practical by staying here to payoff my trainer and all that stuff. She really has me confused right now.