sexual failure and psychological impotence
Hello everyone ^_^ I've read here for a long time but have never posted before.
I 19, and have had three sexual partners. One lasted almost a year with the others being a few weeks and a few months. I would say I am VERY comfortable with my sexuality, and myself in general. I am straight; but am very accepting of other peoples etc etc etc. I would say I'm a Nympho, I LOVE sex and everything about it. I would say I'm picky about my girls hence only 3 partners.
I'm endowed above average; and my second girl who was 29 said I was the best lover she had ever had. The other two also said I was quite talented; and I would agree. I would rate my sexual prowness as a 9 or 10.
So heres the deal; I go home with a sorority girl a few nights ago.
Shes had two partners. Long story short we start getting it on and then my little friend suddently loses ALL interest as soon as we're both nekkid and busting out the condom. Before we shed our clothes and busted out the rubber; I was sporting my usual equipment.
Great, first time encounter, 97lb sorority girl with an AMAZING body and good personality. Yeah...
I am comfortable with my body. I'm 6'1, 180lbs. I don't have defined pecs and have a tiny tiny stomach paunche? but am fine with that. Shes 97lbs of gorgeous woman. One other thing that really threw me off; after getting nekkid and before giving up, while messing around she was barely wet but either a great actor or very horney. I am used to very wet girls; two of mine would run down their legs frequently.
So I can't get it up; and eventually we put our clothes back on, shes obviously concerned and doesn't know what to think, and I want to run away and hide in a corner..
So I've been obcessing over this, alot.
WTF is wrong with me? I DO NOT UNDERSTAND THIS. I usually pop 6 boners a day? I mean diamond cutting ones..... and since then it's been MAYBE one medium hard one? MAYBE.
I told her it wasn't her, and don't think it was. She was gorgeous and very exciting.
So my question of older men or knowledgable women: What gives?
I understand it's all in my head, i failed once and am now utterly horrified of possible future failures. I don't have a steady sexual partner to allay my fears so it just manifests itself.
So earlier that night; we had been talking. She told me about her first man who evidently had a donkey dick. She told me about the second guy who couldn't get it up the second time they went at it; and how odd and amusing it was to her. She told me how she told the second guy he was small when he was trying to brag.
Obviously; this along with ALOT of stress and lack of sleep contributed to my problem. The question is now: what do I do. It's not getting better, I can't stop thinking about it, and I'm TERRIFIED of a second round which I'm sure she's interested in.
thanks,
i appreciate the feedback immensely.
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