I have loved and lost many times and I know just how heartbroken you are. I can feel it in your words.
I wish the best for you. Everything DOES happen for a reason and you will find out why one day.
I am not just saying this.....you are a very attractive man. That girl is foolish. She doesn't know what she wants in life. You want someone who is on the same page as you are.....you will find her.