Maleficient: I was pretty drunk and editet my post a lot. That sentence was left from a paragraph I meant to delete completely.
Basically it said I was an asshole, the kind a lot girls fall for and get hurt by. As a guy I want a sweet and charming girl, and most guys I know also want nice girls. It boggles my mind that so many women are attracted to assholes, but they are. If imagine myself in some of those girls's situation I cannot understand what made them come back to me or even like me.
rukkyg: Hell Yeah
And more than you know, everything that was bad in my life has turned good, and the few good things I had have turned bad.
I am not in a bad mood because of it though. Everything else in my life is great, and I even got a new job today. The way I feel about it is that it is a nuisance because I know I can do so much better if I just get out of this insecurity.
What I am thinking is that I have no reason to fuck the world through the girl, but plenty of reason to love the world through the girl. And I just need some time learning how to love...