mystmarimatt

Granted, i think this was sort of covered a few days ago by lazyaznguy, I kind of just needed to sound off and vent about the last few days that wouldn't (necessarily) induce a wave of advice. Not that I wouldn't appreciate it, but, as you'll see, I don't totally want that to be the focus.

Some of you might have picked this up from me earlier, but I'll do a recap just in case:

Last year, I was at a school I hated, I hated the dorms, the location, the people, the programs. But mostly, it was the dorm life, the dorm I resided in was a veritable wasteland, nobody talked to each other, and even my roommate, who I really liked, and he liked me, was never around. Compounded with the fact that I'm naturally shy and have a hard time meeting people...It wasn't a very good situation, and try as I might, I never found a social life, I was utterly miserable.

So, I decided to transfer for this year. I went from a smallish-sized state school (5000 students) to a fairly small private school (1600 students) and i really love the programs here, for theatre, english, music and history, the stuff I want to study.

My story here begins with moving in on saturday, and it feels once again I'm residing in a lifeless dorm, and, once again, My roommate isn't around (and by not around, I mean he's gone home for the weekend, and seems to want to do that every weekend), And it just feels like last year all over again. Not to mention, I'm surrounded by a dorm that's filled mostly with football players who already know each other, and personally, I get along better with girls than I do with guys, and being that there are no girls here (the dorm is coed by wing)...I'm just feeling disgruintled. Now, I understand the flaws in my own behavior, that I need to get out and meet people, and get involved, and I'm going to try to talk to the residential people to find a new place to live. I think the only thing I'm really getting at, and maybe you all can interject, but, I'm just really discouraged, and feeling like "Shit, the universe hates me when it comes to dorm life."

So, I guess I needed to vent, and figue, hey, you can use this thread to vent about how much the universe hates you at the moment.

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If you could really get to know someone and know that they weren't lying to you, then you would know the world was real. Because you could agree on things, you could compare notes. That must be why people get married or make Art. So they'll be able to really know something and not go insane.