Having been in your shoes, I know exactly how you fee....only my guy came to the states all the way from New Zealand, to have it end pretty much the same way TWICE (well except I wanted HIM to go home). Just know that because it ended this way, you are NOT a loser...at least you had the guts to TRY to make it work and at least trying will make you a winner everytime. Just because the two of you didnt "mesh" in person doesnt mean a thing...take the experience....learn what you can from it....use that knowledge in the future....oh and mal is right....the cheesecake will help
oh...and the pictures were very nice!!!!