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Johnny Rotten · 08-23-2004, 10:45 PM

So I went out to a bar tonight, for a going away party for a co-worker. There was this other girl there, also a co-worker. A few months back, I'd danced a brief tango with her, in the figurative sense. We went on a few dates, got some hot kissing, and then she pushed herself away from me. Well, that's life, you move on. The thing is that it had been a while since I'd gotten lucky with a girl, and she'd gotten me to think that I was finally going to get somewhere after a long drought. But things didn't turn out that way. Oh well. But tonight, I walk into the middle of a conversation she was having about this other guy she'd met and was having a really good time with. She'd gotten hers with this guy and talked about how nice it was to have done that after having gone awhile after not getting any. That kind of burned me up, to a surprising degree.

I mean, you have this long drought, you meet a girl, you think you're getting somewhere, it turns out you're not, then you have to hear about how good of a time she's having with somebody else. I'd had several strong beers at this point, so it was difficult to shake off. I had to basically head home at that point. I'd been pondering, days before, how frustrating it had been to hit a dead end with her, how essentially defensive she had been, and then somebody else comes along and breaks down all those walls I'd struggled against in vain.

This whole situation is knocking around in my head, and it's difficult to break free of, and I don't think I'm going to sleep well tonight, and the last thing I need is to begin wondering, all over again, about my place in life, why things have turned out the way they have, etc. I feel anger, righteousness, bitterness...but most of all I just feel disjointed. I feel kicked, off-track. I really wish I hadn't gone to this going away party and had just been blissfully ignorant. I almost didn't go, but it was only a few blocks from my place. I keep telling myself that some good will come from it, but I just don't see it. I know I'll feel better eventually. I'll forget all about this sturm and drang, life will go on, I'll take my lumps, build character, and be that much more ready for what lies ahead.

I just wish I could catch a break.

08-23-2004, 10:45 PM	#1 (permalink)
Johnny Rotten lost and found Location: Berkeley	What does it take for a guy to catch a break? So I went out to a bar tonight, for a going away party for a co-worker. There was this other girl there, also a co-worker. A few months back, I'd danced a brief tango with her, in the figurative sense. We went on a few dates, got some hot kissing, and then she pushed herself away from me. Well, that's life, you move on. The thing is that it had been a while since I'd gotten lucky with a girl, and she'd gotten me to think that I was finally going to get somewhere after a long drought. But things didn't turn out that way. Oh well. But tonight, I walk into the middle of a conversation she was having about this other guy she'd met and was having a really good time with. She'd gotten hers with this guy and talked about how nice it was to have done that after having gone awhile after not getting any. That kind of burned me up, to a surprising degree. I mean, you have this long drought, you meet a girl, you think you're getting somewhere, it turns out you're not, then you have to hear about how good of a time she's having with somebody else. I'd had several strong beers at this point, so it was difficult to shake off. I had to basically head home at that point. I'd been pondering, days before, how frustrating it had been to hit a dead end with her, how essentially defensive she had been, and then somebody else comes along and breaks down all those walls I'd struggled against in vain. This whole situation is knocking around in my head, and it's difficult to break free of, and I don't think I'm going to sleep well tonight, and the last thing I need is to begin wondering, all over again, about my place in life, why things have turned out the way they have, etc. I feel anger, righteousness, bitterness...but most of all I just feel disjointed. I feel kicked, off-track. I really wish I hadn't gone to this going away party and had just been blissfully ignorant. I almost didn't go, but it was only a few blocks from my place. I keep telling myself that some good will come from it, but I just don't see it. I know I'll feel better eventually. I'll forget all about this sturm and drang, life will go on, I'll take my lumps, build character, and be that much more ready for what lies ahead. I just wish I could catch a break.